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So, back in September, I found out finally that I had Adrenal fatigue, and decided to make a big effort to change the world and make things right. I started going to bed earlier, cut right back on coffee, and axed sugar as much as I could and felt AMAZING for it, so I decided it was time to go back to the gym and get stronger. So like, I got a personal trainer to make me a work out and everything that I could do, and it really pushed me. My muscles have become SO WEAK since I got the IBS / Adrenal fatigue issue, and it really showed me how bad I was with the amount my body could take. I couldn't complete a work out of 15 minutes at all. I was training once a week cause in between sessions my body was crying in pain, and for some reason, I was heavily depressed. I persisted though, and for 2 months, I did this work out and considered taking it to twice a week except for I the fact that I got MAJOR depression after every work out, and became trigger sensitive to any negativity around me, and it broke my great sleeping habit I got myself into. I couldn't get up in the morning, couldn't think, everything for the last 2 months for me has been SHIT.

Except getting muscle strength back. I ignored the negatives for ages cause I was so proud of myself for getting physically stronger. I don't think I'm ready for even weightless workouts though. I read up on line that people that have gone through sever adrenal fatigue like me have to start off literally on breathing, and stretching exercises. I can't even use gravity to exercise my muscles cause the act of exercising my muscles activates my adrenal glands, and it hammers through my sugar resources, and makes me sugar crash, but it also my body finds it difficult to gather its senses together to heal me so I have to take it REALLY slow- to work out my adrenal grands, but not enough that they freak out. 

It's... frustrating. I'm going to try out my gym's Yoga class, but lets be real here, my body wants to be lifting weights, while my immune system is freaking the hell out, so I'm going to see how I am in February, and see if my body's stress levels have gone down, cause I've been to Overload, and ran a stall at Armageddon, and Christmas is coming. My body is stressed, and it can't handle anything let alone exercise. 

So- yeah. If you all have been concerned, I've spent the last 2 months in a very depressed state while my body battles me going to the gym for 15 minutes once a week to do box squats, standing push up, medicine ball lifts, and band pulls. It has been super hard, and I just have to let it go for now. I just can't life as I am right now, and it's way too much for me :( 

I hope people are doing much better than me though! Please give me an e-hug if you read this so I know you're still around :)
  • Mood: Tired
  • Reading: Survivors- Summer
  • Watching: Jojo's Bizarre Adventures

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MattSeiz Featured By Owner Oct 15, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Thank you for the watch :D
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Marcus-Pechan Featured By Owner Oct 9, 2014   General Artist
Thanks for the fave!
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doremin Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the watch!
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Arkillian Featured By Owner Oct 9, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
No problem :) I like to keep in contact with fellow Kiwis :) 
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BorderBreaker Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2014  Hobbyist
Hellooo!
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Arkillian Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Hey there, hon! :love: Recovered from the Overloads? Man- I was exhausted after I made my rounds *o* The last table was just about to leave when I finally got to it D: It's tough being a punter! XD
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BorderBreaker Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2014  Hobbyist
Mostly recovered. Just have a couple of things to do in the aftermath, balance the books etc...? Good to know you made it all the way around, I noticed it took you about an hour to get down one isle, mission accomplished! Will you be returning next year as a stall holder?
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Arkillian Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
OMG 1 HOUR?! *dies then cries or something* Holy crap, I knew I was slow but that's really something XD 

I honestly don't know how to answer that one hon. I've unfortunately given myself a fear of sorts with all the effort I've put into conventions in the past or something, where if I even think about a time constrained thing, my body starts shuddering till I tell myself that I don't need to do it. IT's a thing that IS getting better, but I don't know if it's because I'm not going to conventions that it knows it doesn't have to fight so hard, or if my adrenal glands are repairing themselves. I am fighting though to get a better handle on it. This Wednesday will be week 3 of me going back to the gym for the first time in YEARS. MY personal trainer has given me a work out that is about 10 minutes long and has pathetic difficulty, and the main goal for me right now is moving my body. That's it. My first time back I did 3 exercises and was in pain for a week. Last week I did about 6, and was in pain for 2 days. I'm hoping that this Wednesday I can do a full workout and start getting my strength back. The stronger and healthier I am, the better I sleep, I feel and the better I can deal with my auto immune issues. My goals with my gym plan right now have very low expectations cause frankly, what I'm doing right now amazes me. I honestly thought I'd be incapable of ANY exersize, but I've managed to wait till my body was just capable apparently :) I can only walk- not power walk, my push ups are all half body standing ones, my squats are pretty pathetic, and I'm on entry leveled core strengthening exersizes, but every time I go to the gym, I come back feeling more certain that I can do it, and feeling stronger after I recover. All I have to do is not over do it. 

So.... maybe? I've told myself I'd take a year off, but lets be realistic- if I'm still like this next year then I'm going to take another year off cause I am NO GOOD to anyone being a freaked out mess behind the table. Even if I get a stand in to sell for me, and wander the con all day. I'll be going at a punter at minimum :D And hey- I'll be running Drawfest stall all 3 days for Armageddon, so I'm not gone. I'm just not selling MY art. For me, the is a huge stress off my mind :) Running the stall I can do easy enough. Coming up with art to sell after having several years of forcing art out of myself for upcoming conventions when I was obviously too stressed? Nope. My body deserves this break ;) 

It's great to see you back at the con this year though- I saw a colour cover on your table too! <3 Sales a bit better this time around for you? Sorry I couldn't stick around longer than I did. I really love that the con has gotten bigger but MAN- I can't get around the whole con in 1 hour anymore like I use to XD IT was pretty much 6pm by the time I got to the last table XD
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REIdepenguin Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014  Student General Artist
I read a few of chapters of Turnabout Attorney and Zeth's profile. he's really well written. I have yet to finish the fic but I must say: you're talented :D
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birthdays Featured By Owner May 19, 2014
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:woohoo: :iconcakelickplz: :iconballoonsplz: !!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! :iconballoonsplz2: :iconcakelickplz:  :woohoo:

On behalf of the birthdays team, I sincerely apologise that your greeting has arrived late this year.

We hope you had an awesome birthday on May 18th, with lots of birthday fun, gifts, happiness and most definitely, lots of cake! Here's to another year!

Many well wishes and love from your friendly birthdays team :love:

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This birthday greeting was brought to you by: hiddendelights
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Arkillian Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you for the lovely message TuT I was a little late on my reply too so don't worry about it at all :love:
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starwilliams Featured By Owner May 19, 2014   General Artist
Forgot to wish you happy birthday! I hope you had a great day. :)
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Arkillian Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you, Star TuT Sorry about the late reply- life got a bit busy for me T.T
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Suprime1 Featured By Owner May 18, 2014
Happy birthday :)
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Arkillian Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you! :love:
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Jasperinity Featured By Owner May 18, 2014
Happy birthday! :D
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Arkillian Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you TuT :hug:
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Jasperinity Featured By Owner Jun 9, 2014
:hug: You're welcome! :3
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nekocrouton Featured By Owner May 18, 2014
Oh wow, it's your birthday!! o:

Happy Birthday Arki!! :heart: :cake:
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Arkillian Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you, Crouton <3 And up- another year older XD
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